Monday, November 30, 2020
Long Distance Love Story A poem by Larry Estrada Jr.
Monday, April 13, 2020
Heartbreaking at least for me
well its its official ive lost my lifes Savings
Tuesday, March 31, 2020
covid-19
Thursday, August 22, 2019
knowing ones self worth
I have never known my Value Ive never known if I am worthy of anything. I Know I have doubted if people love me. I know that I feel like I dont deserve to be happy. I find My fiance getting sexual messeges from people he says are just friends I think thats ok because he treats me like I am always in the wrong. I find he has gay hook up apps in use with current messeges on his phone he says they are old even though the messeges are from today and yesterday so i let it go because im supposed to because he says im so lucky he is with me. I will neved do better than him. He is most likely right. Im old Im ugly Im fat I should be grateful he is with me. Why then Do I feel horrible? It doesnt matter he is having sex with other people he stays with me and I In fact should be grateful that he stays with me. this is the best I will ever do or have. Its fine. Time to bottle up these useless feelings and go to work. it doesnt matter and obviously no body cares so just keep pushing on..
Friday, May 31, 2019
Cassio
So for years and Years Ive been single I finally figured out why I was meant to move to Boston to find the person I intend to spend the rest of my Life with. His Name is Cassio. I fell hard and fast for him. Its not just a whirlwind romance its an Epic love. I cannot see my life without him. we fit we Match he is the component my life has been missing. He is the polar opposite of myself yet we fit. We dont have the same tastes he is extremely femme but he is that part of me I need he is 100% gentle which smooths my rough edges. I am not just enamored with him I genuinely love this man. He has a sas that is not afraid to show. All I want to do is spend my life showering him with love and kindness. he is soft where I am hard he is not embittered or jaded he is kind and optimistic. He is truly Amazing what else would he be to make me fall in love with him. he is so much so that I the person who believed would never find love found it in him. My heart is full my cup runneth over because he has graced my life with his presence. For this I am grateful for him I am grateful. I have been blessed...
Monday, December 3, 2018
Long days
So today started early af but Im getting through it just another average day here in boston I am doing laundry at the Laundromat I am Hoping to get A big dryer but thats really the luck of the draw. The cheapest laundromat it a mile from my house but I went ahead and lyfted here and plan to lyft back. no I am not being lazy it's just too far too walk with so much stuff . its hard to do everything but i manage. lifes what it is for me like everyone else. it can be really hard to get around somedays but thats life for everyone right. I am goung to go get fiod after and maybe see a film cause well I can. thats my update sorrt for not blogging more but it gets hard when Life gets in the way...