Living HIV Poz and Hope

So living with HIV is not easy, people discriminate against you and so much more.One of the many things that disgusts me about living with HIV is that people seem to think that it is a gay disease, when it clearly is not.So many people label diseases with races and sexuality and base they're opinions on absolute fiction.Living with a chronic illness is not a punishment for being born who you are it is simply an act of fate.Unfortunately certain people seem to truly disagree with this,and many people see HIV as a death sentence , for the newly diagnosed I will say this, Do not give up on hope Life will be OK, Yeah things are going to be different for the rest of your life, but I promise that with patience peace of mind and a good support network Life will be OK, you can live a long healthy and happy life. For those of you afraid to be tested don't be afraid its better to be on top of your status and not let it sneak up on you. Be informed protect yourself and your partner. And for those of you who are neg get educated and educate others inform people that they must protect themselves and they're partners. And don't think that you know everything about this virus no one does this virus is deadly if left unchecked.You must always be informed keep up with the CDC and most recent information and remember HIV Hep-C and other viruses are out there if the city you live in has a needle exchange and you are an injection drug user get clean needles regularly and never share them. And almost every city has free clinics get tested get your free condoms Don't be shy if your going to have sex practice safer sex. Love yourself enough to protect yourself you are worth it and so much more. I wish I had someone to tell me these things when I was younger. You are love you are life You are beautiful no matter what anyone Say's you deserve to live a virus free life don't let anyone say hey I'm not Pos we don't need condoms or pressure you by saying we only need to use a condom if you got something, you are worth more than that trust me.use one every time. I know its hard but use em.
People often tell me that I am overly outspoken on this subject but i don't want anyone to go through what I went through. what I still go through every day for the last thirteen years, I have been blessed and led a very charmed life but was this virus worth it. Was the abuse worth it, I can tell you no it absolutely was not. Yes I will always have love for my ex's even the one who gave me my Virus but I let them go I had to if i didn't I would have gone mental Years ago.
Having said this I want to say that life is beautiful. Ans I am truly blessed I have touched the lives of several people and so many have touched mine. I have met some of the most remarkable people I will ever know On my journey in this world, and when it is time to make my journey home I know I will have left an empty Place in many hearts. and although  I don't see this time coming anytime soon it is a comfort to me to know I have been blessed and blessed the lives of other's by being apart of their lives and them enriching mine.Blessings come by way of may forms. Sometimes it is a good friend sometimes a wonderful lover sometimes an animal companion. But in all cases a blessing should never be turned away.Love is one of the most precious of all gifts.And also today IS the most precious gift. Remember yesterday is history tomorrow a mystery but today is a gift that's why it is called the Present.
I am love I am life I am a gift from the creator I am far from perfect yet at my core I was made perfectly so my spirit is perfect no character defects no flaws a beautiful spirit created in and of love and to love and be free and creative. Light surrounds me to the depths of my spirit and I will share this love this light my sage I will lay down my tobacco I will pray for all of you and that all be well in your worlds because you are loved and peace is in you. You are peace and light surrounds you and your creator made sure it would.May you never forget that and remember always.It took me many years and allot of reminding by good friends and family that this simple truth is a reality.It did not come over nite and I work on this every day it took me years to become angry and jaded and sad it took years to help me ot grow spiritually and to love myself. I write so that it doesn't take you the same amount of time take my words and grow form my experiences become the person you were meant to be. Love yourself protect yourself be happy being you.You are beautiful and loved you are in fact the very essence of LOVE.
I am never alone I walk in the light of the grandfather creator he is with me always and as i know he is with me so too should you know he is with you when you are too weak to stand he will give you strength,if you are weaker still he will be your legs and stand for you. Never fear Because I am never alone and neither are you alone.
And as for anyone with a chronic illness Take care of yourself please you have much yet to do as do all of us. A couple of years ago shortly after my mother passed on and made her journey home I became gravely ill I got serious pneumonia and was in a come for several days, Later I found out i died for five minutes I know I died because well when I was out my parents were there they asked me If I was ready to come home? If I was to come with them. They said I still did have work to do so I should make my decision they would not be angry either way but it was my decision to make they would wait patiently for me to come home to them if I so decided to stay there was no rush to make my journey I had time yet.I decided to stay and make my parents proud that day i started to change my life. I decided to face life on life's terms to face it head on and never sell myself short I know that i have a past but knew also that it is because of my past that I can reach others and in any way i Can i will reach out. I do not want people to heave to suffer the way that i did.
 So here I am telling my story a long and sordid Tale murder suicide darkness and lite birth and renewed  life so much has happened and i am still here when one door closes another one sure enough has always opened for me.
 For the LGBTI youth out there I know it is hard right now and sometime may seem like there is nothing out there for you but I assure you it does get better and everyday it is getting better with your strength and your love it will get better.There is work for everyone you are needed you are worth so much this world needs you in so very many ways.You will make a better future you will make a difference you matter no matter what the assholes in this world think you are valuable you are not a mistake Your perfect just the way you are. Be safe Love yourself and know that live is worth living. Look at me I am still here after going through the hell I have been through. You can make it especially if I did you can too.
 For the HIV/AIDS community we have lost Elizabeth a true spirit who fought for our cause and we have all lost many friends new and old to the virus we must rally together and say our prayers for those who have made their journey's home and for my sister Shana I say  a prayer for the loss of your dear friend Patty may she rest in the loving arms of the creator know you were blessed by knowing her she enriched the lives of many through education and the telling of her story I am only sad that I never had the chance to know her myself love light and peace to all of you may you all know your your worth and remember your value in this world.
for those we have lost you are gone but never forgotten creator take these spirits and lift them up to you may they fly free and be at peace in your loving kindness and may your light shine down on us all.
                          Love peace and blessings to you all

A companion for a lost Me

So I have been thinking allot on my life I have these two wonderful four leggeds in my life. I have been many places and been through much I was at a loss and an Impasse for so long. Now I have these two people who need me and I realize I need them as well. I was all ready to be completely alone but now I have these two beautiful and wonderful Companions.I am truly amazed and grateful for the gift from the creator.So I pray for my health and I know these guys will keep me healthy because they needs me. I know that love comes in so very many forms, and now it has been brought to me with these two.I no longer feel lost and confused so much.
I thought for so long that I needed a man in my life or something.But when every man turns into Mr Hyde once we are together its just too much for me to handle.So when these two come into my life I was like I cant handle this then well they kinda jus made me fall for em.I was a total wake up moment, and so I did I woke up and was like I needed that. Life throws you fast ball some times and it just hits you like a bat outta hell. And this time it hit me I just fell.I know they will keep me safe as long as I keep them safe.I have a feeling that the next guy I get with will have to go through them first lolz.Wawasum Is blind in one Eye it messes with his depth perception ie: he will attack a dog twenty times his size I can only Imagine what he would do to a person if they was all wrong for me.Animikee she is sweet till you piss her off no depth perception problems with her though but she will let you know she is there alright she let the big dogs know not to mess with her already.
I am really glad to have these two I know I didn't think I could handle it but well I have surprised myself.So I sit here thinking on my life listening to music and I am like wow I am getting somewhere now.I have started making plans again like real plans not just living day to day. Things are looking much brighter than they ever have in my whole life.And as I type this entry Make you feel my love by Adele starts to play and I realize that for my entire Adult life I have done this in every relationship I have been in, and all they were were warm body's next to me nothing more they tossed me aside like i was trash and I sit here and realize that these two Puppies have shown me that I am more deserving than that.If  I am to give so much I should get as much in return.My friends treat me better than the way my lovers have.and allot of them have treated me better than the family that I was born into.So from now on I will be setting my expectations higher than they once were even if it means I will be single longer.
There is no day but today so why waste it on a person who does not love you or think of you in the same way that you feel for them.So i will not look if love is to come he will find me.I will not want for a companion as I have two who love me more than life.So I have plenty of time and companionship.Life throw what you will my way because I know I am prepared for all of it.My therapy well is loving life and living in this world seeing everything and everyone for who they are the beautiful creations that they are.Life is so beautiful and so many of us lose sight of that when things start to look down but the ups are so much better than we give them credit for they get us through the sad and dark times.Take a long hard look one day you will see exactly what I see.So never be scared of loneliness it does not ever last.Life is full of beautiful things people friends and so much more.If your family lets you down there will be someone there who has your back.If you fall someone will be there to pick you up if you cant walk there will always be someone there to be your legs.Trust in that because of all people who know I am one.
I know I have had my share of falls and people helping me when i cant walk or see or stand on my own two feet.I am here to say that through it all I am here and alive and well and loved by many and I know that you are too so with that I will stop rambling and say goodnite and megwetch for reading love lite and peace. Aho.

companionship

Boozhoo all my friends family n followers today I was given a gift. A gift of companionship.Although I did not want the responsibility of an animal apparently I was in desperate need of companionship or so Leesa said. You see she brought home these two sad looking pups. Well they aren't really pups they are full grown but small lap dogs.and although i claim not to be an animal person they seem to have taken to me.especially the Male. You know they are quiet animals they raise no fuss they are sweet n good natured. So who am I to complain of the companion that comes to me.
   See today while Leesa was out she spied some guys with a gunny sack and they were placing rocks in it she saw the two sweet little dogs and got out of her car and asked Hey what do you think your doing.they immediately replied oh we r going to throw em in the river."oh the hell you say" replied Leesa and she took dem pups n brought em home.Now if you know Leesa she wont let anyone go without not two legged or four legged or winged . She truly has a heart of solid gold.so she brings these cute guys home n well we get em kenneled up n dey find der way out n follow me every wheres. I was like Leesa your doge keep following me they follow me to the front door and wait for me till i get back they follow me into the bathroom they wont let me be."Well hun you got your self a dog, You were tired of being alone weren't you?" was her reply I was like thanks " your welcome" replied Leesa matter of factly.So I am sitting here typing with these two sweet four legged brothers at my feet and everytime I so much as attempt to leave the room they are up and following me. So what to do I cant break their hearts now I guess I will keep at least one of them. Hell I should they adopted me right. I meen look at the legends of dogs they just come they are a gift you know so who the hell am I to look a gift in the face n say nah its all good ill stay alone here is one of the ojibwe legends of how dogs came to men:
                                                   The Ojibwe legend of How Dog Came To man retold

Two Ojibwa Indians in a canoe had been blown far from shore by a great wind. They had gone far and were hungry and lost. They had little strength left to paddle, so they drifted before the wind.



At last their canoe was blown onto a beach and they were glad, but not for long.



Looking for the tracks of animals, they saw some huge footprints which they knew must be those of a giant. They were afraid and hid in the bushes. As they crouched low, a big arrow thudded into the ground close beside them.



Then a huge giant came toward them. A caribou hung from his belt, but the man was so big that it looked like a rabbit. He told them that he did not hurt people and he like to be a friend to little people, who seemed to the giant to be so helpless.



He asked the two lost Indians to come home with him, and since they had no food and their weapons had been lost in the storm at sea, they were glad to go with him. An evil Windigo spirit came to the lodge of the giant and told the two men that the giant had other men hidden away in the forest because he like to eat them.



The Windigo pretended to be a friend, but he was the one who wanted the men because he was an eater of people. The Windigo became very angry when the giant would not give him the two men, and finally the giant became angry too. He took a big stick and turned over a big bowl with it.



A strange animal which the Indians had never seen before lay on the floor, looking up at them. It looked like a wolf to them, but the giant called the animal 'Dog.' The giant told him to kill the evil Windigo spirit. The beast sprang to its feet, shook himself, and started to grow, and grow, and grow. The more he shook himself, the more he grew and the fiercer he became. He sprang at the Windigo and killed him; then the dog grew smaller and smaller and crept under the bowl.



The giant saw that the Indians were much surprised and please with Dog and said that he would give it to them, though it was his pet. He told the men that he would command Dog to take them home. They had no idea how this could be done, though they had seen that the giant was a maker of magic, but they thanked the friendly giant for his great gift. The giant took the men and the dog to the seashore and gave the dog a command. At once it began to grow bigger and bigger, until it was nearly as big as a horse.



The giant put the two men onto the back of the dog and told them to hold on very tightly. As Dog ran into the sea, he grew still bigger and when the water was deep enough he started to swim strongly away from the shore.



After a very long time, the two Ojibwa began to see a part of the sea coast which they knew, and soon the dog headed for shore. As he neared the beach, he became smaller and smaller so that the Indians had to swim for the last part of their journey.



The dog left them close to their lodges and disappeared into the forest. When the men told their tribe of their adventure, the people though that the men were speaking falsely. "Show us even the little mystery animal, Dog, and we shall believe you," a chief said.



A few moons came and went and then, one morning while the tribe slept, the dog returned to the two men. It allowed them to pet it and took food from their hands. The tribe was very much surprised to see this new creature. It stayed with the tribe.



That, as the Ojibwe tell, was how the first dog came to the Earth.

So with that I will say he needs me n i need him we will be here for one another to heal each other now how do I pay for the things this friend n brother spirit needs I will find a way that is for sure. N my doc says that animal companionship is actually therapeutic so there you have it you know.Until I post again i will see You all soon Thank you for reading I am honored that you all do

A native story retold I love my heritage

Heron and the Hummingbird

A Native American Myth
(Hitchiti Tribe)
retold by
S. E. Schlosser

Heron and Hummingbird were very good friends, even though one was tall and gangly and awkward and one was small and sleek and fast. They both loved to eat fish. The Hummingbird preferred small fish like minnows and Heron liked the large ones.

One day, Hummingbird said to his friend: "I am not sure there are enough fish in the world for both of our kind to eat. Why don't we have a race to see which of us should own the fish?"

Heron thought that was a very good idea. They decided that they would race for four days. The finish line was an old dead tree next to a far-away river. Whichever of them sat on top of the tree first on the fourth day of the race would own all the fish in the world.

They started out the next morning. The Hummingbird zipped along, flying around and around the Heron, who was moving steadily forward, flapping his giant wings. Then Hummingbird would be distracted by the pretty flowers along the way. He would flit from one to the other, tasting the nectar. When Hummingbird noticed that Heron was ahead of him, he hurried to catch up with him, zooming ahead as fast as he could, and leaving Heron far behind. Heron just kept flying steadily forward, flapping his giant wings.

Hummingbird was tired from all his flitting. When it got dark, he decided to rest. He found a nice spot to perch and slept all night long. But Heron just kept flying steadily forward all night long, flapping his giant wings.

When Hummingbird woke in the morning, Heron was far ahead. Hummingbird had to fly as fast as he could to catch up. He zoomed past the big, awkward Heron and kept going until Heron had disappeared behind him. Then Hummingbird noticed some pretty flowers nearby. He zip-zipped over to them and tasted their nectar. He was enjoying the pretty scenery and didn't notice Heron flap-flapping passed him with his great wings.

Hummingbird finally remembered that he was racing with Heron, and flew as fast as he could to catch up with the big, awkward bird. Then he zipped along, flying around and around the Heron, who kept moving steadily forward, flapping his giant wings.

For two more days, the Hummingbird and the Heron raced toward the far-distant riverbank with the dead tree that was the finish line. Hummingbird had a marvelous time sipping nectar and flitting among the flowers and resting himself at night. Heron stoically kept up a steady flap-flap-flapping of his giant wings, propelling himself forward through the air all day and all night.

Hummingbird woke from his sleep the morning of the fourth day, refreshed and invigorated. He flew zip-zip toward the riverbank with its dead tree. When it came into view, he saw Heron perched at the top of the tree! Heron had won the race by flying straight and steady through the night while Hummingbird slept.

So from that day forward, the Heron has owned all the fish in the rivers and lakes, and the Hummingbird has sipped from the nectar of the many flowers which he enjoyed so much during the race.

havent posted in a few days

Well I finally quit smoking its been a rough couple days I will get through this though. I made a promise when my mom got sick that i would quit.So the day finally came that i said ive spent enough money on this sickness its time to free myself from it.So now I will only use tobbaco for ceromonial purposes like it was intended.I have tryed for years to quit.Even Prior to moms diagnosis.My whole family is very supporttive and so are my friends.I will be studying more on my ceremonies or taking time for them rather.I need a place to move too but that will come i have been praying on it.Things here just well they are too much for me i need to be nearer my doctors anyway and i need to have a support network.I love my friends here and they love me but I really need to be nearer people who understand my conditions and understand that there are good days and bad.I cant allways have good days and I have allot of bad days but i get by you know.plus living in the sticks is kinda hard on me especially when I am so far from my docs and sisters and nephews n neices.well thats really all i can say for now ill get back soon people thanks for readiing

Culture and Education In Our Native community

Many, many years ago when the world was new, there was a beautiful river. Fish in great numbers lived in this river, and its water was so pure and sweet that all the animals came there to drink. A giant moose heard about the river and he too came there to drink. But he was so big, and he drank so much, that soon the water began to sink lower and lower. The beavers were worried. The water around their lodges was disappearing. Soon their homes would be destroyed. The muskrats were worried, too. What would they do if the water vanished? How could they live? The fish were very worried. The other animals could live on land if the water dried up, but they couldn't.

All the animals tried to think of a way to drive the moose from the river, but he was so big that they were too afraid to try. Even the bear was afraid of him. At last the fly said he would try to drive the moose away. All the animals laughed and jeered. How could a tiny fly frighten a giant moose? The fly said nothing, but that day, as soon as the moose appeared, he went into action. He landed on the moose's foreleg and bit sharply. The moose stamped his foot harder, and each time he stamped, the ground sank and the water rushed in to fill it up. Then the fly jumped about all over the moose, biting and biting and biting until the moose was in a frenzy. He dashed madly about the banks of the river, shaking his head, stamping his feet, snorting and blowing, but he couldn't get rid of that pesky fly. At last the moose fled from the river, and didn't come back. The fly was very proud of his achievement, and boasted to the other animals, "Even the small can fight the strong if they use their brains to think.1

 Today as HIV and AIDS educators in the Native Community We all Have different Ways of working with the Public Or speaking with the elders.In our culture we have to work at things different.There is A great Program developed By Doctor Danette Macintosh of the Muskogee Creek. I have been blessed to take some of these courses to help the HIV and AIDS community.The Out reach programs are so few and far between.Here and Oklahoma there are new cases so many in the native community. I have Lived in Kansas for 10 years now And the seriousness of this Virus is still somewhat lost on people here.So many people forget about it or ignore it or are just plain ignorant of it.And those who do think about the virus are generally very uneducated about it.

 So Many Native Americans have varying traditions and the NNAAPC even States this In its opening.IE:There are many layers of diversity within any culture. When learning about Native cultures, it is important to acknowledge the differences between various tribes, nations, villages, and islands. These differences can occur among groups within a single geographical region or across various regions. Although it is impossible to learn the unique characteristics of each Native entity, it is possible to recognize and better understand a specific group’s customs, norms, beliefs, and values in order to gain a distinct cultural perspective.

 All Native cultures honor a traditional and sacred worldview, an understanding and respect for the circle of life. This worldview emphasizes the balance and connection of people, earth, air, water, and animals. It highlights respect, obligation, and responsibility. Native elders and ancestral wisdom are greatly valued as a part of this worldview. Most often these individuals hold the knowledge and resources that naturally promote community health. You can consult these respected community members in order to create more effective HIV/AIDS prevention materials. 

 These above statements are from the NNAAPC And i believe in the work done there I would not have taken the courses I took from them if i didn't believe in the work we all do.I am so honored to look at life in this way to be native and urban but to still put value in the traditions of my people.This is so important to us all. And education and prevention is a very big deal to me.

 Nutrition Is also integral to our health allot of people may disagree but I believe that the mind body and spirit are all connected and food feeds the body and spirit.And as a point of reference i will simply use NNAAPC module on this.

While there is no known nutritional means of curing or preventing HIV infection, appropriate nutrition can help to hinder the advance of infection. For example, several researchers have found that certain nutrients can help slow disease progression. Good nutrition for people with AIDS can help minimize loss of body mass and prevent vitamin and mineral deficiencies. Vitamins and minerals play an important part in maintaining proper function of the immune system.

Colonization dramatically changed the diet and nutrition of Native peoples. Native people were dislocated from their traditional lands and prohibited from hunting and gathering. Their traditional food system was replaced by the government commodity food program, which consisted of refined white flour, potatoes, sugar, and processed cheeses. Native people began to depend on high fat, high sugar, and heavily processed foods. These, in turn, contributed to high rates of diabetes, high blood pressure, heart diseases, and obesity.

As a response to the poor health and diet of many Native people today, communities have returned to traditional diets that include bison, a low fat and high-protein meat, salmon, roots, wild rice, and organic gardening. Many Native leaders and health professionals now realize that the health of Native people will continue to decline if they do not develop better nutrition. This is most important for slowing the progression of HIV to AIDS and for people with AIDS who must maintain a balanced diet for optimal health.

• Study the general state of nutrition in your community. What staples make up your community’s diet now? What staples did your community traditionally consume?

CASE IN POINT: The Agency for Toxic Substances and Disease Registry (ATSDR) conducts theAlaska Traditional Diet Project. The Project assists consumers of Alaskan traditional foods to make informed dietary decisions to prevent health problems. It incorporates both traditional and western scientific information.

 

  I also Believe that everything you put into your body really makes a difference people with diets of fast food and conventional foods are generally more prone to illness I don't know of any studies on this just My personal experiences with conventional verses Organic foods.I try to eat a diet of grain fed and free range meats as well as organic veggies and fruits.I really believe that my health has done so well because of the way I eat.

 There are many many ways to live healthy.But some of the simplest things I have learned Are 1Love yourself 2 Eat right 3listen to your doctor 4 keep your faith your traditions 5 be proud of who you are 6 accept what has come your way 7 never ever forget how strong you are.

  These are just a few of the amazing things that I have learned since i have been pos.And I am Glad to share them with all of you Natives and non natives alike we can all learn from one another.My uncle Always Says Mitakuye Oyasin  we are all related And I haven't forgotten that.So yeah don't forget life's little lessons we all have to learn them and I for one am grateful for the simplest of them.

  Never forget we are all here for a reason we all have a purpose.Everything happens for a reason.The good and the bad.Well I wanted to tell one more story but I cant remember it so I will try to remember it and if I am here tomorrow i will tell it then May all of you find this and have a good peaceful day.Aho.

 1.http://www.ilhawaii.net/~stony/loreindx.html

government issues

There are somethings that i just don't discuss generally because it upsets me such as gays in the military and politics on homosexuality in particular # 1 lets start with the policy called don't ask don't tell HM interesting you can be gay in the military if you are a closet case that is just plane crazy bullshit if you are gay and wish to fight in the military historically in the native American community you were honored for this you were a spiritual warrior and you tended to be more fierce a warrior for being one of these chosen warriors as well as being honored you were a leader in your community being gay was not a negative thing it meant that you were more in tune with the world the spirits and yourself and i will not not be put down for being gay if the military wants me then they had better make new policy because i will fight for the honor of my homeland but i will not be put down just because i am gay i would feel honored to fight for this country that i am born to but this country would not honor me in return just because i am gay which is total bullshit now onto #2 on my list policy on homosexuality in this country like umm the gay marriage issue you know traditionally this country really had no policy on marriage before colonization that is if you were with someone and you no longer wanted to be with them there was no divorce court you see you just put their things outside your lodging and they respected your decision and gay people were not looked at differently you could be with whomever you wanted to be with until the relationship had run its course so making policy on marriage in this country when you are Anglo (which the entire government is) is unfair to the first nations people IE(myself and my lover and my lover before that ) you know it should be first nations people making policy in that WHITE HOUSE of theirs because we are the people that have lineage that predates that WHITE HOUSE of theirs in a country that regulates our traditions and delegates our rights and constantly reneges on our treaties is completely fascist and we are the ones who suffer we have lost so much to the Anglo perspective and we sit back and do nothing so in my eyes policy on homosexuality is policy on the first nations people because we are the ones who should be making policy due to the fact that it is our country and was our country first before Anglo colonization we respected this land did not pollute this land could eat directly from the seas that border this land and could hunt and gather anything with out fear of tainted anything as well as fish the rivers and lakes that are now so polluted that when we eat from them we fear things like mercury poisoning and possible radiation these are Anglo problems we as first nations people and especially if we are of the two spirit world we have to stand up and say something or we will never be able to live life in the respect that we deserve.sorry for such a long rant people but it is something that i am absolutely adamant about.All of these are very serious issues.And the government funding on HIV and AIDS education and prevention measures are being blocked and locked medical help to the disabled is being locked out. People who really need the help are constantly denied and those people are suffering with out medical coverage.I dig down so deep and write to help others not fall into my position because I feel the government doesn't care about us the ones who suffer.They can make all these laws and bail out companies that have wasted others money and and they can help the very rich and very powerful but when it comes to us  the people who are here suffering and fighting sometimes for our very lives we are all left behind. And then when the supreme court finds in favor of people like Fred Phelps that its OK to protest at a private event like a funeral I mean really to allow jack asses like that to do as they please lord knows were it me i would be in jail. Like i said we the ones who are all on the front lines down to the soldiers that fight for this very country we are all left behind and no one does anything for any of us.But the rich and powerful get everything.

 And along these Lines I believe that Hate and Intolerance is a poison that we in this country suffer far too much of and from and the fact that the government does nothing but sit on its ass while our children are being bullied for being who they are and being of color is total crap.This sickens me so damn much.I was told that we are the adults we need to lead by example well what kind of example are we giving when we allow racist jackasses to rule this government. what kind of example are we setting for our children when we say its OK he is just a faggot he got what he deserved or she was a dyke she shouldn't be alive anyway.Or its OK that HIV exists it kills the faggots off. Do you have any idea how may times i have heard things like this. yet what does the government do nothing. HATE CRIMES omg they are still happening every day and all these laws that were passed for the safety of all are never enforced and in some states aren't even recognized what was the point oh put it on the books so we don't look small minded. Yeah OK like why is it a black guy or Mexican gets pulled over for speeding but a white guy just gets waved on through racial profiling and hate still abounds the whole of this country and god forbid you be queer and of color then your just totally screwed. What the hell is coming of this country. 

You know HIV is still a very serious issue in this country just look at the cdc results here ill give em to you .

CDC estimates that more than one million people are living with HIV in the United States. One in five (21%) of those people living with HIV is unaware of their infection. Despite increases in the total number of people living with HIV in the US in recent years, the annual number of new HIV infections has remained relatively stable. However, new infections continue at far too high a level, with an estimated 56,300 Americans becoming infected with HIV each year. More than 18,000 people with AIDS still die each year in the US. Gay, bisexual, and other men who have sex with men (MSM)† are strongly affected and represent the majority of persons who have died. Through 2007, more than 576,000 people with AIDS in the US have died since the epidemic began. HIV Incidence and Prevalence, US, 1977-2006 Hall HI, Song R, Rhodes P, et al. Estimation of HIV Incidence in the US. JAMA2008;300: 520–529. CDC. HIV prevalence estimates—US, 2006. MMWR 2008;57(39):1073-76. By Risk Group Gay, Bisexual, and Other Men Who Have Sex with Men (MSM): By risk group, gay, bisexual, and other MSM of all races remain the population most severely affected by HIV. MSM account for more than half (53%) of all new HIV infections in the U.S. each year, as well as nearly half (48%) of people living with HIV. While CDC estimates that MSM account for just 4% of the US male population aged 13 and older, the rate of new HIV diagnoses among MSM in the US is more than 44 times that of other men and more than 40 times that of women. White MSM account for the largest number of annual new HIV infections of any group in the US, followed closely by black MSM. MSM is the only risk group in the U.S. in which new HIV infections have been increasing since the early 1990s. Heterosexuals and Injection Drug Users: Heterosexuals and injection drug users also continue to be affected by HIV. Individuals infected through heterosexual contact account for 31% of annual new HIV infections and 28% of people living with HIV. As a group, women account for 27% of annual new HIV infections and 25% of those living with HIV. Injection drug users represent 12% of annual new HIV infections and 19% of those living with HIV. Estimates of New HIV Infections in the US, By Transmission Category, 2006 Hall HI, Song R, Rhodes P, et al. Estimation of HIV Incidence in the US. JAMA2008;300: 520–529. By Race/Ethnicity African Americans: Among racial/ethnic groups, African Americans face the most severe burden of HIV and AIDS in the nation. While blacks represent approximately 12% of the U.S. population, they account for almost half (46%) of people living with HIV in the US, as well as nearly half (45%) of new infections each year. HIV infections among blacks overall have been roughly stable since the early 1990s. At some point in their life, approximately one in 16 black men will be diagnosed with HIV, as will one in 30 black women. The rate of new HIV infections for black men is about six times as high as that of white men, nearly three times that of Hispanic/Latino men, and more than twice that of black women. The HIV incidence rate for black women is nearly 15 times as high as that of white women, and nearly four times that of Hispanic/Latino women. Hispanics/Latinos: Hispanics/Latinos are also disproportionately impacted. Hispanics/Latinos represent 15% of the population but account for an estimated 17% of people living with HIV and 17% of new infections. HIV infections among Hispanics/Latinos overall have been roughly stable since the early 1990s. The rate of new HIV infections among Hispanic/Latino men is more than double that of white men and the rate among Hispanic/Latino women is nearly four times that of white women. Estimates Rates of New HIV Infections, By Race/Ethnicity, 2006 Hall HI, Song R, Rhodes P, et al. Estimation of HIV Incidence in the US. JAMA2008;300: 520–529. * This fact sheet highlights key information about those most impacted by HIV and AIDS in the US. For information about other risk populations, visit www.cdc.gov/hiv. † The term “men who have sex with men” (MSM) is used in CDC surveillance systems. It indicates the behaviors that transmit HIV infection, rather than how individuals self-identify in terms of their sexuality.

Last Modified: July 20, 2010 Last Reviewed: July 20, 2010 Content Source: Divisions of HIV/AIDS Prevention National Center for HIV/AIDS, Viral Hepatitis, STD, and TB Prevention if you think this isn't serious it very much is and what is the government doing about it? I am so concerned about all this and so much more yeah some times I feel like we are beating our heads against a wall is anyone listening please tell me is any one else concerned about any of this. I know this has gone on far too long in this country we need to do more than we are people need to stand up. we need to step out of the box for our future or we wont have one we need to do more than what has been done in the past .Thank you all for letting me share and vent and write you're eyes off I hope you all get what i am saying because this is important to all people not just gay or Hispanic or black or white or native but this concerns  all people.  So many Americans think we aren't affected but we all are. And Yeah i don't discuss this often but none of really discuss any of these issues I am asking myself why they are important aren't they.Shouldn't we start talking more and more about these issues.shouldn't we be doing more about these issues.On a personal note I know i will be doing more for myself my people my country and for any one who needs the help or an ear or a shoulder i wish there were more I could do, Don't You?