Death the next great adventure

I've been terminal now for a while I've been wishing for death and the end of my suffering for several months I'm in constant consistent pain. Yet still I am here I cry in agonizing pain every night I silently suffer don't complain yet state the facts. People think that I am just depressed yet the reality is I'll never have a heart transplant because medicaid doesn't cover it the government fought me on my disability in order too make it short term payout if I don't.qualify for the medically nessiserry surgery then I will get disability for the rest.of my life and because even with the surgery I'd still be permanently disabled this is shorter term paying our for a few years verses twenty thirty or more. I'm ready really if the world is so selfish too continue to let people die then help them live I'd rather go home anyway there's nothing here for me I've got no one too love or be with I'm glad to let go and go back into the loving arms of the creator that breathed me into life by giving me a breath and putting me here to see and learn what I have. I am ready now so when he calls me to take that journey he knows I'm ready and unafraid. What awaits is nothing to be afraid of its a glorious awesome and amazingly beautiful place. So when I go don't think it's a bad thing everyday is a good day too die. Death is just a journey through the process of shedding this skin I will be released unto the next world which is more spectacular than anything I can explain.