I have lived this life in a constant ebb and flow I've been a lover of men I've been a lover of women I've never found what I've been looking for. I have lived a solitary life of often sadness but I've never regretted being kind and loving to others until recently. I am terminal and people have taken advantage of this I know that to keep from being hurt by humanity I must keep myself hardened and be free of anything that could bind me to another human being. This is the hardest decision I've ever had too make and that is my curse I am going to be alone until the stars fall and my eternal winter has come this is something I've become complacent with life may be lonely but I won't be hurt again as tears fall from my eyes in my solitude I'll find comfort in knowing that I'll be home soon may people understand that the kindest thing is often the hardest thing.
I am A 33 Year old gay native/Hispanic Male Living with HIV for the last thirteen years.Some days I dont know where to begin and some days it feels like it might be the end But i am still here alive for a reason
