Long Distance Love Story A poem by Larry Estrada Jr.

The long distance love story. By Larry Estrada Jr.

Loving someone from a distance. 

Wishing for the touch of thier skin cheek to cheek

Longing to be anything but alone

Not being heard by the one you love

Finding to respit in the night

Knowing this is not right

Spiralling into the abyss 

The fewl of his touch yet I still miss

Knowing this is not going to end well

The Cancer sets in

The tears rush to the surface

He begs you to fight

The pain is to hard to bear

He isnt even there 

Alone in a world so cold

Is this a dream 

Or is this my reality.

Heartbreaking at least for me

So as many of you know I picked up my life and moved out of Kansas and into Boston.  Its been a total rollercoaster Ive had amazing ups but with the Ups come the downs I as most of you know have been on disability for a long time and out here 731 a month isnt enough unless you have a serious voucher well I did everything that you can do and never got word back. So i said screw it I went back to work took three jobs and got financially stable and even had investments for a life after I  wanted to quit working and even had investments set aside to make a bit of capital  so i could finally open my little food truck and cafe. Everything was looking at I was feesably between one and two years out for having all the money I needed to start up with no loans then in December the first talk of the virus and the market started to crash. BUT I thought it was gonna be fine but no I  lost everything and now I'm so scared of everything 

 I am barely going to be able to pay my  very minimum bills my credits shot now and everyone is saying not to worry it will all be ok but I  dont think that it will. Not for my dreams and my future. Aren't We all Allowed to dream big and work hard and smart to make those dreams become a reality.  Well thats all ive got for this messege guys keep your heads up and remember when the darkness falls there will always be a light to guide you on your way. A:ho mitakuye oyasin https://www.supportful.com/1a8c3326-6916-4cf2-b4cd-5cf67c19c7b0

well its its official ive lost my lifes Savings

When the market crashed i had invested a little more than 150k well thats what my stocks had gone up to anyways it was every thing that I had ever saved put into an investment fund and it tanked and I don't mean im at what I put in but I lost all but 49 dollars i put in over 20 thousand dollars in my tipd my side gigs every prnny I did not need for food bus and rent went into my investments accounts and now what I have is not a single thing.  I had plans I was going to open my own shop nothing special just some simple fry bread and ndn tacos and desserts.  But I didn't rush and pull the trigger and save what had built once the market trickled a bit like everyone else. I thought just ride it out it'll get better but no it got worse then worse and  now I am stuck with bills and im robbinv peter to pay paul and for what. I just want to give up. But someine said crowdfunding was a good idea well maybe i can get a little money to get me through this and have a bit to start over who knows so here it is because lord knows that I have no other choice but to do this and pray for a miracle https://www.supportful.com/1a8c3326-6916-4cf2-b4cd-5cf67c19c7b0

covid-19

https://www.facebook.com/donate/1459086114252084/?fundraiser_source=external_url

 So I started a fundraiser because i lost my job i cant pay my bills because ui benis arent sufficient. i am on the verge of suicide because im better of dead and will be dead if i get evicted. life isnt worth living alone destitute and on the streets i dont feel anyone cares and theres nothing i can do. im so broken my life is worthless and i dont even think the money from the findraiser will help get me through this very hard time.