Gay Native Living HIV Pos Today

I would like to sit with you for a moment to take a breath to be a friend. I Promote Safe sex I have for years I have every bit of paperwork On my diagnosis since the first time I was diagnosed. I am a longtime survivor of the virus. But I am also a Long time survivor of hate and discrimination. yet I am constantly feeling as though I have to defend Myself and against a member of my own Family. Its time to truly cut all ties she isn't my sister she is a stranger to me this is last time I shall ever allow her free rent in my head she truly hurt me for the very last time and she is in every way dead to me I pray she have a great life but not at my expense not anymore I am done shedding tears for someone who lies with no remorse and justifies her own actions without recourse. I have died and come back I am a walking living breathing miracle but I am Human and will not be treated like I am less than and she is better than I do not deserve this I have been doing my part to contribute and educate and be an advocate now to be treated like I am crap by someone born into my own bloodline no no more.
 I am a good person Or people from all over the world and people from all over would not have come literally to pray over me day in and day out while I was in my Coma. How dare someone call me a liar I never lie whats the damn point in it you always get caught. Life is a blessing we all take for granted yet I am here feeling the need to defend myself no no no more this will happen no more. For someone without even a GED to claim they are working On a BSN then quotes YouTube and other non reputable sites for they're information rather than an actual text book to cite as to what is wrong with everyone else well its laughable the sad thing is people actually believe the crap the lies not many but a few and that's enough. It pisses me off that people have shown up and my aunts and uncles houses looking for this relative she must have really done someone dirty to have people looking up who her relatives are and its kinda scary as well.Its hard to believe we were raised by the same people I turn out to be the man I am today while well we wont go there I pray for you is all i can say I'm done ever thinking we could be friends when every word that comes out of you is dripping with disdain and lies when your venomous and heartless at least I can Say I have a heart because I just had several surgeries on mine and people prayed for it to start working again people prayed I could breathe on my own again thousands of people litter ally so I know I am loved I have been hurt so much but i will never let you hurt me or my sisters again enough is enough I will not mention your name I know you stalk my blog I know you do your just that way but you know I have a better reason as to why I stopped blogging I wasn't going to fake school I wasn't lying to people I was in a Coma Fighting for my life and I am here and everyone is glad I am here my brain took a hit a hard one my heart my kidneys every single one of my organs I now have a pacemaker defibrillator in my chest but I am here and I have true people who love me so much they stayed with me round the clock praying for me or in the lobby or waiting rooms and even when the doctors were giving up they didn't they prayed over me they prayed for me they cried and said I am not ready to let you go Brother nephew friend I am here I love you please please stay with me I need you and I know you don't know that feeling why because you have never been there where you have people who really care for you that much to be at your side 24 hours a day if you rally needed them I have good friends and great sisters who never left me not for a second my little sister when she thought I wasn't going to make it she got so depressed but i came through and she kept going that's a sister someone who is there for you 24 hours a day if you need them they don't make up stories they love you unconditionally and that's why I have to let you go forever because you will never ever be that I let my love for you go I release you to no longer be my relation I will live on without you I have real family that loves me more than you ever could love anyone other than yourself yet I am the crazy one id rather be crazy that a Liar...
   Now as for today's message let those people go that are hurtful let those people go who want to do you harm love yourself more than anything and love will come to you in droves and never ever take anything for granted life is too precious a gift. Your body your decision make the right one Use a condom every time all it takes is one.. many blessings to you all mitakuye Oyasin